For me, blossoming as I am and accepting myself completely is an ongoing task. And I must confess… I have been struggling to find direction with regard to the blog and book work. Feeling like a duck out of water I have been pushing forward holding on tightly with hope that the next day or the next turn might shed some much needed light on things.
As I lay in bed this morning giving Him my first five minutes I opened my daily devotional email to find a powerful reminder of Who placed me on this path and the purpose of this journey. Here is an excerpt that I found particularly helpful from the devotional Proverbs 31 Setting Yourself Up For Success:
“… God spoke our key verse to Joshua as he took command of the nation of Israel and stared down a big job … cross a river and conquer a land full of unfriendly people and fortified cities. No small task for the new guy.
But, after God issued His orders, He did not go straight into battle plans. In fact, God didn’t talk war strategy at all. Instead, God told Joshua: Stick with me. It’s as if God knew our human tendencies to focus on the plan, instead of the Planner. To look to the goal instead of the Giver of the goal.
The key to Joshua’s victory would be his surrender to God. And the same is true for us today…”
As I read I realized that I too have been focusing on the plan instead of the planner. My focus has been on how best to fulfill without disappointing instead of remaining focused on the planner and letting Him take me where He wishes me to go. I was reminded that this journey I am working to fulfill is His hand at work and not mine to understand. And so, with His love in my heart despite continuing to feel unqualified, I will persevere. I will take it one step at a time with steady focus on Him and faith that He will provide the necessary tools. He will qualify me.